ekaikai

ekaikai @ 2007-03-26T17:47:00

2007-03-26T09:48:05Z

Last Friday, I went to Tagaytay with Carchar and Edward. We met up with Pheeny and her south friends that night. It was fun hanging out with them again. I’ve almost forgotten how crazy they can get! We were throwing people in the pool and spraying beer at each other. We were noisy and wild but we didn’t care. We sang out heart out and danced the night away. It was easy getting along with Pheeny’s friends. Till the next adventure of the Tuesday group!

Then last Saturday night, Des and I went to Jorge’s house. We sang videoke and played cards. Jorge’s teammates and college friends also dropped by. It was like one big impromptu party.

Sunday morning, straight from Jorge’s house, Des and I went on a shopping spree. We went to mega then g4. I saw my ex! Well, not exactly him… just his picture. Not the latest ex but Mr. Metrosexual, my first bf. Hahaha! He has a poster there endorsing a boutique. I think its pink and blue soda. Anyway laughtrip! Crazy ass guy!

ekaikai @ 2007-03-20T17:09:00

2007-03-20T09:17:54Z

if you hate cats, you should try this! http://www.arcadetown.com/catapult/playgame.asp

ekaikai @ 2007-03-20T13:53:00

2007-03-20T05:53:55Z

Yey! I’m done moping around and feeling sorry for myself. All I needed was a good dose of great friends. They reminded me that guys will come and go but friends will stay. I must admit its cliché but its true. It’s been years since we’ve last seen each other but even if we’re all in different circumstances than when we last saw each other, it’s like nothing has changed. Ang moving on nga naman, weather weather lang! Hehehehe!

ekaikai @ 2007-03-20T08:59:00

2007-03-20T01:31:30Z

Ah… The good life. I went to Laguna with my south friends last weekend. God, I missed them. It just goes to show that even if it has been years since you last saw each other, friends will always be friends. We weren’t even planning on going to Laguna! We were just supposed to hang out at my friend Drich’s house at BF. It was around 1am and while everyone was almost drunk, someone suggested going to Laguna for a road trip. I missed our road trips!

ekaikai @ 2007-03-16T17:30:00

2007-03-16T09:30:51Z

At dahil nainggit ako kay llehs and lilithanne hehehehe...

You Are 92% Bipolar

You have some serious ups and downs, maybe to the point of endangering your own life.
Consult a doctor to see if you may truly have bipolar disorder.

Are You Bipolar?

ekaikai @ 2007-03-15T16:49:00

2007-03-15T08:50:17Z

1. Do you still talk to the person you LAST kissed?
I just got a message a week or so ago. I had something of his and he wanted it back.

2. Have you ever seen your best friends cry?
Yes, I have.

3. Do you like more than one person right now?
Nope. I don’t like anyone.

4. What is the last thing you ate?
Sandwich

5. Did you get any compliments today?
nope.

6. Where are you going on your next vacation?
Out of town with my college friends

7. Are most of your friends guys or girls?
Girls.

8. Do you own any furniture from Ikea?
No, i don't think i do.

10. If you could have one superpower what would it be?
invisibility.

11. Where have you lived most of your life?
Pasig

12. Why is the sky blue?
Because molecules in the air absorbs blue light. The blue light is then radiated back, giving the sky a blue color. (just a guess)

13. When was the last time you took a long drive?
Going to Los Banos, Laguna for work! Argh!

14. What is your favorite smell?
Citrus scents or those certain familiar scents that reminds you of someone or something.

15. Are you moody?
Very much! I think I’m bi polar.

16. What is your most favorite movie of all time?
City of Angels and meet joe black!

17. Have you ever done anything hurtful to a classmate?
I don't think so.

18. Have you ever played Spin the Bottle?
Yes.

19. Have you ever toilet papered someones house?
No.

20. Have you ever had a crush on your sister's/brother's friend?
No

21. Have you ever gone to a beach?
Yes, just recently.

22. Have you ever had a stalker?
I don't think so.

23. Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
Nope.

24. Whats your favorite TV show?
Heroes! I miss it.

25. Have you ever gone to a party?
Yes.

26. Do you believe in love?
Someday, maybe I’ll find someone who wont give up on me.

27. Have you ever been betrayed by your best friend?
Nope. But I’ve been betrayed by some people who I thought were my friends.

28. Have you ever been out of your country?
Yes.

29. Have you ever thrown up from working out?
Nope.

30. Have you ever gotten a haircut so bad that you wore a hat?
No.

31. Have you ever eaten 3 meals from 3 different fast food in one day?

Maybe just 2. KFC for lunch and Mcdo for dinner.

32. What was the last song you listened to?
Neon by John Mayer

33. What's one item you never leave home without?
Phone

34. Last restaurant you ate at?
Pho Hoa

35. Who was the last person who called you?
Yayo

36. When was the last time you slept?
Around 12mn last night

37. What are your plans for tonight?
Watch tv and eat

38. What does the 4th text message on your phone say?
Hi ekay, where are you? - Tads

Q: Been arrested ?:
A: no

Q: Kissed someone you didn't like ?:
A: no

Q: Do you like someone ?:
A: no

Q: Do they know ?:
A: I said I don’t like anyone

Q: Slept in until 5 PM ?:
A: yes

Q: Held a snake ?:
A: ewww! No! I HATE snakes!

Q: Been suspended from school ?:
A: no

Q: Been fired from a job ?:
A: no. I resigned!!!!

Q: Sang karaoke ?:
A: yes

Q: Laughed until you started crying ?:
A: yeah

Q: Caught a snowflake on your tongue ?:
A: nope

Q: Kissed in the Rain?
A: nope

Q: Sat on a roof top ?:
A: yes

Q: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on ?:
A: nope

Q: Broken a bone ?:
A: no

Q: Shaved your head ?:
A: no

Q: Played a prank on someone ?:
A: yeah

Q: Had/have a gym membership ?:
A: yeah

Q: Made a girlfriend/boyfriend cry ?:
A: well im sure they didn’t cry over me.

Q: Shot a gun ?:
A: yes

Q: Donated Blood ?:
A: no

Q: Had your heart broken ?:
A: yeah

Q: Broken someone's heart ?:
A: I don’t think it was important enough for their heart to break.

Q: Smoked weed today?:
A: no

Q: Snuck out of your house ?:
A: no

Q: Snuck someone of the opposite sex in your house ?:
A: no

Q: Got searched by the cops ?:
A: no

Q: Tattoo ?:
A: no

Q: Any piercings besides ears ?:
A: no

1. What bill do you hate paying the most? Credit card and cellphone bill. I just hate getting the bill but im not the one who pays for it.

2. Where's the best place to eat a romantic dinner? Garden dinner under the moonlit sky

3. Last time you puked from drinking? About two months ago.

4. Have you ever got drunk and danced on a bar? Nope just got so fucking drunk but not enough to dance on a bar.

5. Name of your first grade teacher? Ms. Kho.

6. What do you really want to be doing right now? Sleeping.

7. What did you want to be when you were growing up? A doctor.

8. How many colleges did you attend? one

9. Why did you wear the shirt that you have on right now? Because I want to.

10. GAS PRICES! First thought? I don’t care.

11. If you could move anywhere and take someone with you, where would you go and who would you bring? Europe with my mom and aunt

12. First thought when the alarm went off this morning? Crap.

13. Last thought before going to sleep last night? Some people can be down right tactless

14. Favorite style of underwear? Boy briefs

15. Favorite style of underwear for the opposite sex? Boxers!!!

16. What errand/chore do you despise? All.

17. If you didn't have to work, would you volunteer? Yes. Hmmm.. good idea!

18. Get up early or sleep in? SLEEP IN!

19. What is your favorite cartoon character? Elmo!

20. Favorite NON sexual thing to do at night with a girl/guy? Watch tv, sleep, tickle fest!

21. Do you have a secret that you wouldn't mind everyone knowing? Nope. A secret is a secret.

22. When did you first start feeling old? When I started working

23. Favorite 80's movie? I don’t remember any. Its waaay to long ago

24. Your favorite lunch meat? Mystery meat! Hahahahaha!

27. Do you think marriage is an outdated ritual that was invented by people who died at 20? Nope.

28. Who do you stalk on MySpace? I don't have a Myspace.

29. Favorite guilty pleasure? Chocolates, cakes, ice cream and sweets!

30. Favorite movie you wouldn't want anyone to find out about? Im not ashamed to say that I love city of angels and meet joe black (I don’t know why but im drawn to movies where they don’t get back together in the end)

31. What's your drink? Baileys or tequila rose

32. Who from high school would you like to run into? Tiff, Des, and Jorge!

33. What radio station is your car radio tuned to right now? ipod

34. What is a rumor that someone has spread about you? that I took drugs to get thin.

35. The Cosby Show or the Simpsons? The Simpsons.

36. Worst relationship mistake that you wish you could take back? hahahaha! A lot! Paranoia, jealousy, tantrums, unpredictable drunken outbursts…

37. Do you like the person who sits directly across from you at work? Yeah. Ms. Mabs is ok.

38. If you could get away with it, who would you kill? Hehehehehe!

39. What famous person would you like to have dinner with? No one. I don’t care.

40. What famous person would you like to sleep with? Josh Hartnett or Patrick Fulger!

41. Have you ever had to use a fire extinguisher for its intended use? No.

42. Ever felt like running over a pedestrian? No.

Best, Worst, Last, Today, Tomorrow, Favorite, Currently, and True or False.

Best
1. Male friend: I guess that would be John.
2. Female friend: Desie!!!
3. Vacation: Bora!!!

Worst
1. Time of day: 8am to 6:30pm (work hours)
2. Day of the Week: Monday
3. Food: Ampalaya
4. Memory: i guess what ive done in the past

Last
1. Person you saw: Ms. Mabs
2. Talked to on the phone: Yayo
3. Last text: Yayo
4. Message over Myspace: I don’t have one

Today
1. What are you doing now: answering this survey when I should be working
2. What are you wearing right now: top and slacks
3. Better than yesterday?: yeah actually. My friends make me happy.

Tomorrow
1. Is: A work day. But I don’t want to work!
2. Got any plans?: Nope
3. Dislikes about tomorrow: work

Favorite
1. Number: 1
2. Song: Iris
3. color: blue, black, white
4. Season: Summer
5. Flower: Stargazers

Currently
1. Missing someone: nope. Not anymore!
2. Mood: bored
3. Wanting: freedom

True or False:

I am a cuddler.
true!

I am a morning person.
false

I am a perfectionist.
sometimes

I am an only child.
true

I am currently in pajamas.
false

I am currently suffering from a broken heart.
used to be true

I am online 24/7.
False

I am very shy around the opposite gender.
false

I can be paranoid at times.
true!!!!!! always!

I currently regret something
true

When I get mad, I curse frequently.
true

I enjoy country music.
False

I love smoothies.
true.

I enjoy talking on the phone.
True

I have a hidden talent.
false

I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
true

I have a tendency to fall for the "wrong" girl/guy.
true

I have all my grandparents.
false

I have at least one brother and/or sister.
false

I have been told that I have a good sense of humor.
i dnt know actually. Corny I think!

I have broken a bone.
false

I have changed a diaper.
sadly..TRUE

I have changed a lot over the past year.
true, im changing

I have done something illegal.
true mostly likely

I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
false

I have had major/minor surgery?
false

I have had my hair cut within the last 2 months.
true!

I have had the cops called on me.
false

Food
Hamburger [or] Cheeseburger?: Cheesebuger.
Dark Chocolate [or] Milk Chocolate?: both but dark is better.
Strawberries [or] Blueberries?: Strawberries
Butter [or] Cream Cheese?: Cream cheese
Lolipops [or] Jolly Ranchers?: lollies.
Roast Beef [or] Steak?: steak
Vegetable Soup [or] Chicken Noodle Soup?: veggie.
Trix [or] Lucky Charms?: Trix.
Frosted Flakes [or] Corn Flakes?: Frosted Flakes.
Snack Wraps [or] McNuggets?: Mc nuggets!
Microwavable Pizza [or] Take-Out?: Take-out.
Muffins [or] Cookies?: Cookies.
Cake [or] Cupcakes?: Cake.
Chocolate [or] Vanilla?: Choco
Spaghetti [or] Lasagne?: Lasagne.
Asparagus [or] Brussel Sprouts?: Brussel.
Carrots [or] Celery?: Carrots.
Mushrooms [or] String Beans?: Mushrooms
Apples [or] Oranges?: oranges
Kiwi [or] Coconut?: Kiwi.
Lemon [or] Lime?: Lemon.
Coca Cola [or] Sprite?: neither
7Up [or] Mountain Dew?: neither
Milky Way [or] Snickers?: Snickers.
M&Ms [or] Peanut M&Ms?: Plain.
Mashed Potatoes [or] French Fries?: Mashed.
Gum [or] Mints?: both.
Cinnamon [or] Sugar?: sugar.

Colors
Blue [or] Green?: Blue.
Orange [or] Red?: Red.
Yellow [or] Pink?: Pink.
Black [or] Purple?: Black.
White [or] Gray?: White
Brown [or] Silver?: Silver.

Places
New York City [or] Chicago?: NYC.
McDonalds [or] Burger King?: Burger King.
Wendys [or] KFC?: Wendy’s
Dunkin Donuts [or] Baskin Robbins?: Baskin Robbins.
Eat In [or] Eat Out?: Both.
Ocean [or] Pool?: Ocean.
School [or] Work?: neither
5th Grade [or] 10th Grade?: neither.
Hawaii [or] Florida?: Hawaii.
Alaska [or] Montana?: Alaska.
Washington [or] Maine?: Washington.
New Hampshire [or] Delaware?: I don't know.

About The Opposite Sex
Eyes [or] Mouth?: Eyes.
Hair [or] Face?: Hair.
Looks [or] Personality?: Personality.
Legs [or] Butt?: Butt.

Other || Random
Movies [or] TV?: dvd.
Glue [or] Tape?: Tape.
Crayons [or] Markers?: Markers.
Money [or] Gift?: gift.
Clothes [or] Shoes?: both.
Phone [or] Computer?: cellphone.
Myspace [or] Xanga?: Nither.
Dopey [or] Grumpy?: neither
Snow White [or] Cinderella?: Snow White.
ABC [or] NBC?: Neither.
American Idol [or] Dancing With The Stars?: American Idol!.
Kelly Clarkson [or] Fantasia Burrino?: I don’t care
Carrie Underwood [or] Taylor Hicks?: taylor hicks
Rap [or] Hip-Hop?: Neither.
Bath [or] Shower?: both
Super Nanny [or] Wife Swap?: huh?.
Amazing Race [or] Survivor?: Amazing race.
AIM [or] YAHOO!: google
Whale [or] Dolphin?: Dolphin.
Horse [or] Pig?: Horse.
Monkey [or] Tiger?: mr. Monkey!
Giraffe [or] Elephant?: elephant
Christmas [or] Halloween?: neither.
New Years [or] Easter?: New Years.
Valentines Day [or] St. Patricks Day?: neither
Basketball [or] Baseball?: basket
Soccer [or] Football?: Soccer.
Italy [or] Spain?: Italy.
North America [or] South America?: North America.
Europe [or] Asia?: Europe.
Austrailia [or] Antartica?: Australia.
Milky Pens [or] Colored Pencils?: milky pens.
Backpack [or] Bookbag?: hand bag
Toaster [or] Microwave?: microwave
Winter [or] Summer?: summer
Fall [or] Spring?: Fall.
Cold [or] Hot?: Cold.
Bed [or] Couch?: Bed.
Restaurant [or] Diner?: Restaurant.
DVD [or] Cassette?: DVD.
Comey [or] Horror?: Comedy.
Drama [or] Chick Flick?: chick
Soup [or] Salad?: Salad!
100 [or] 1000?: 1000 if its money.
Blue Eyes [or] Brown Eyes?: Brown.
50 Cent [or] Eminem?: Snoop
Abercrombie & Fitch [or] Aeropostale?: A&F.
Old Navy [or] Kohls?: Old Navy,
Shop Rite [or] Stop & Shop?: Never heard of either.
Adam [or] Eve?: Eve!
Fast [or] Slow?: Depends on my mood! ;p
A Lot [or] A Little?: a lot of love yes. Little respect no.
Big [or] Little?: Big! Hahahaha!
Short [or] Tall?: Tall.
Heavy [or] Light?: medium
Dark [or] Light?: Light.
Clean [or] Dirty?: Clean.
CD [or] Record?: CD.
Movie [or] Broadway?: Movie.
Moon [or] Star?: Both.
Sky [or] Grass?: Sky.
Disney Channel [or] Nickelodeon?: cartoon network.
Teacher [or] Student?: bum
Rich [or] Poor?: filthy fucking rich
Money [or] Love?: Love.
Fellas B4 Ladies [or] Ladies B4 Fellas?: ladies before fellas. Friends will always be there.
Double Chin [or] Split Ends?: neither
White Out [or] Sharpies?: huh?
High [or] Low?: High.
Party Harty [or] Stay Home?: Stay home.
Study [or] Read?: Read.
Books [or] Magazines?: Books.
Britney Spears [or] Lindsay Lohan?: Neither.
Video Games [or] Board games?: Videogames.
Water [or] Seltzer?: Water.
Soda [or] Juice?: juice
Salt [or] Pepper?: salt
Surveys [or] Quizzes?: Surveys!
Young [or] Old?: not too young not too old
Single [or] Taken?: single
Napkins [or] Tissues?: tissue.
Penguins [or] Turtles?: penguine (CHAR).
Tree [or] Flower?: flower
Sun [or] Moon?: both
Binder [or] Notebook?: Notebook.
Pens [or] Pencils?: Pencils
Elevator [or] Escalator?: Elevator.
Top Floor [or] Lobby Level?: penthouse.
Hotel [or] Motel?: Hotel.
Airplane [or] Train?: plane
Road Trip [or] Long Flight?: Road trip.
Snow Day [or] 50 Dollars?: $50.
July [or] December?: december
August [or] April?: April.
May [or] November?: November.
September [or] March?: september
MTV [or] VH1?: mtv
Swings [or] Slide?: both
Rock Wall [or] Bungee Jump?: both.
Roller Coaster [or] Ferris Wheel?: both.
Bumper Cars [or] Games?: bumper cars!
Not Brushing Teeth [or] Not Showering?: Neither.
Smoking [or] Drinking?: both

Words
Peace [or] Word?: Peace.
Integer [or] Beverage?: Beverage.
Button [or] Clicker?: Button.
Zipper [or] Crush?: Zipper
Did You Like This Survey? Yes [or] No: yes. Weird…

Currents
{x} Current Clothes: top and slacks.
{x} Current Mood: bored
{x} Current Taste: nothing
{x} Current Hair: long layered with bangs.
{x} Current Annoyance: many to mention
{x} Current Smell: scent of freedom
{x} Current thing you ought to be doing: nothing.
{x} Current Desktop Picture: blue
{x} Current Favorite Singer: I don't have one.
{x} Current Book: Shirley’s shopaholic meets sister.
{x} Current DVD In Player: nip tuck.
{x} Current Refreshment: water
{x} Current Worry: how to find a new job
{x} Current Favorite Celebrity: I don't have one.

Favorite...
{x} Food: Chinese.
{x} Drink: milk tea
{x} Color: Black, blue, silver, white.
{x} Shoes: flip flops
{x} Candy: mint.
{x} TV Show: heroes!
{x} Movie: city of angels, meet joe black
{x} Dance: none
{x} Vegetable: lettuce, tomatoes
{x} Fruit: pears, oranges

On Dating....
{x} Long or short hair? Short
{x} Dark or blond hair? Brown, black.
{x} Tall or short? Tall.
{x} Ms./Mr Sensitive or Ms./Mr Funny? Both.
{x) good girl/boy or bad girl/boy? Good
{x} Dark or light eyes? Dark.
{x} Hat or no hat? No hat.
{x} Pierced or no? pirced
{x} Freckles or none? either.
{x} Pubes or neatly shaved? natural. Hahahaha! Shaved would be weird for a guy
{x} Hat or no hat? No hat.
{x} Fat or thin? medium
{x} Tan or not? eiither.

Random..
{x} Chocolate milk or hot chocolate? both.
{x} Marry the perfect lover or the perfect friend? The perfect lover is the perfect friend.
{x} Root Beer or Dr. Pepper? neither
{x} Sweet or sour? Sweet.
{x} Sappy/action/comedy/horror? Action, comedy, horror.
{x} Cats or dogs? Dogs.
{x} Ocean or Pool? Ocean.
{x} Cool Ranch or Nacho Cheese? Nacho Cheese.
{x} Mud or Jell-O wrestling? both
{x} With or without ice-cubes? With.
{x} Shine or rain? shine
{x} Winter/Summer/Fall/Spring? summer
{x} Vanilla or Chocolate? chocolate
{x} Gloves or mittens? Neither.
{x} Eyes open or closed? Closed.
{x} Fly or breathe under water? both.
{x} Bunk-bed or waterbed? water
{x} Chewing gum or hard candy? Chewing gum.
{x} Motor boat or sailboat? sail
{x} Lights on or off? Off.
{x} Chicken or fish? Chicken.

What's your favorite:.
{x} Number? 1
{x} Holiday? any
{x} Radio station? None.
{x} Place? Anywhere but here.
{x} Flower? stargazeraz
{x} Scent? Citrus, scents that reminds me of someone or something.
{x} If you could be anywhere, where would you be? not here
{x} What would you be doing? Sleeping.
{x} What are you listening to? Mr. Brightside
{x} Can you do anything freakish with your body? Hopefully yeah.
{x} Do you get dressed in the bathroom after your shower? Yeah.

ekaikai @ 2007-03-15T14:00:00

2007-03-15T06:05:48Z

It’s been along time since I’ve seen my college friends. We’ve all been busy with our lives that we lost touch. I had the chance to talk to them this past few days. We all have one thing in common; we’re all burned out from work! Hopefully our plans will push through. We might go to palawan or bohol! Yehey! Another out of town for me! I miss my friends…

ekaikai @ 2007-03-14T18:07:00

2007-03-14T10:07:59Z

Lately, I have this feeling of wanting to love and be loved. To be with someone who you know you you’ll spend the rest of your life with. That certain person whose day will brighten by just thinking about you. That person who laughs at your corniest jokes coz he knows your just trying to make him smile. That person who wont get turned off even if he sees you when you just woke up. I want to try to be that girl who doesn’t get jealous easily. I want to be that girl that a guy will be proud to introduce to his friends. I want to be that girl a guy can be open to and say his secrets and fears. I want to have fun with him, I want to spend time with him, I want to get through tough times together and share simple joys with each other. Well that’s a tall order. It’s more of a fantasy than a reality.

ekaikai @ 2007-03-14T14:47:00

2007-03-14T06:56:26Z

This is a VERY interesting conversation between Des and her officemate. Why is it interesting? because its about me and her crazy plot to keep me away from guys.

Ekay! Read this!

Mike Francisco: des
me: yes

Mike Francisco: ganda ng ksma mo s pic ah hehe
me: hehe

Mike Francisco: friend mo?
me: oo
me: baket?

Mike Francisco: wla lng... ganda nya lng hehe
me: a ok

Mike Francisco: hehe

me: type mo ba?
Mike Francisco: uu hehe... bkt?
me: sure ka?
Mike Francisco: yap... bkt mo tinatanong kng sure ako? hehehe.. mukha bang ndi ako sure? hehe
me: really sure?
Mike Francisco: haha sure n sure!
me: kasi kakabreak lang nila ng bf nya
me: actually yung guy yung nakipag break
Mike Francisco: oh? bka nman mahal nya p un guy
Mike Francisco: bka ndi p sya nkamove on
me: hindi yon e
Mike Francisco: eh ano?
me: ayaw na kasi nung guy
me: well, ayaw na nung guy specifically sa kanya
Mike Francisco: ah bka ngsawa n cguro or bka may nkta n iba
me: hindi naman
Mike Francisco: matagal b cla nung guy?
me: walang third party
me: pero ayaw na nung guy sa kanya
me: kasi biglang nagka self-realization yung guy
me: you know that bull----
me: self-realization ek ek
Mike Francisco: hehe
Mike Francisco: mukhang apektado k rin ah... mukhang galit k rin dun s guy hehe
me: oo noh
me: syempre friend ko yung sinaktan nya e
Mike Francisco: ok b yan friend mo? mabait b yan?
me: syempre friend ko e
me: pero alam mo anong sabe saken nung kumag?
Mike Francisco: ano sbi nya?
me: something like "no offense des, ha. alam ko kasing friend mo sya. pero kasi..."
Mike Francisco: kasi?
me: "... kasi, i met this girl last week. sobrang ok nya. cool. masaya. so i realized, babae pala ang gusto ko"
me: alam mo yun? pinaasa nya friend ko an all! tas yun pala....
me: nakaka inis
me: ang discriminating ng dating
Mike Francisco: ah so may nameet nga sya n mas ok s friend mo
me: oo
me: in short, hindi nya kaya i-accept yung friend ko for who she really is
me: e so what? ganun ang nature ng friend ko e. wala na sya magagawa don.
me: she chose to be that way
me: she grew up like that
Mike Francisco: ano b friend mo? hula ko tahimik sya masyado
me: ang slow mo dude
me: haay pano ko ba ieexplain sayo
Mike Francisco: eh msyado kc broad un cnsabi mo
Mike Francisco: straight to the point n hehe
me: bading sya. ok?
me: gets?!
me: ayon.
me: kaya mo ba sya i-accept na ganun sya?
Mike Francisco: bading friend mo? wooh!
me: anong "wooh!" ?
Mike Francisco: wooh kc ndi halata
Mike Francisco: ganda nya kc
Mike Francisco: girl n girl sya s pic
me: so ano? diba sabe mo type mo?
me: pakilala kita gusto mo?
Mike Francisco: cge ok lng
me: sure ka?
me: sabihin mo lang
Mike Francisco: papakilala lng nman eh
me: kasi ayoko yung in the end aayaw ka rin kasi nga bading sya
me: i hate guys like that
Mike Francisco: onga eh
me: ano?
me: tingnan mo ayaw mo rin
Mike Francisco: dapat ndi nila pinasok un gnun relationship kng aayaw rin cla
Mike Francisco: d nman s ayaw
me: takot ka?
Mike Francisco: d rin ako takot
me: well sige wag nalang
me: parang hesitant ka e
me: ok lang
Mike Francisco: d ah
me: there's a lot of fish in the sea
Mike Francisco: interested lng ako mameet sya
me: at bakit ka naman interested?
me: hindi ka pa ba nakakita ng kagaya nya sa buong buhay mo?
Mike Francisco: d p kc ako nkameet ng gnun kya interested ako
me: wag na
me: she's not some sort of freak show
me: tao rin sya
Mike Francisco: awts... d ko nman ggwin s friend mo un
me: ano?
me: wag na
Mike Francisco: friends lng
me: baka ipaasa mo lang sya

Mike Francisco: mukhang pti skin galit k n rin
me: hindi a
me: wala lang you're just like the other guys na nagtanong saken about her
Mike Francisco: eh kc tinatarayan mo n ko hehe
me: kala mo interesado, biglang "ay hindi. friends lang."
me: lalo yung guys na never ko naman nakakausap, aba bigla nalang ako kinu-kulit out of nowhere!
Mike Francisco: kya friends lng kc....
me: kasi ano?
me: aminin mo na
me: ayaw mo kasi bading sya. tama?
Mike Francisco: kc my gf ako ngaun
me: i see
me: may gf ka
me: pero interesado ka ma-meet sya a while ago nung hindi ko pa sinasabeng bading sya
me: ngayong alam mo nang bading sya, bigla kang nagka-girlfriend!
me: men...
Mike Francisco: interesado p rin nman ako mameet sya ngaun
me: i just said wag na baka ipaasa mo pa sya
me: ok?
me: mga lalake talaga o...
me: haaay
Mike Francisco: alam mo parang jinujudge mo personality ko
Mike Francisco: hindi lahat ng lalake kgya ng iniicip mo
me: aba ako pa ang jujudge ngayon
me: oh well what the heck
me: nice talking to you anyway

Mike Francisco: mukhang magaaway p yta tyo

Mike Francisco: sna d n lng ako ngtanong
me: whatever
me: well you're a guy

*she told her officemates na bading ako! take note - BADING! hahahahaha! I couldnt stop laughing when i read this!

ekaikai @ 2007-03-13T16:59:00

2007-03-13T09:00:11Z

When you want change in your life, what do you do? Is getting a hair cut enough? How about a new job? Maybe I need something more drastic. I’m thinking, how about adding some extra pounds? Why not? I wont break a sweat, literally. Just chomp on a lot of pizza, gulp liters of chocolate shakes, finish a pint of ice cream and eat a one-pounder bag of m&ms. Hmm.. I’ll start when I get my paycheck. As of now, I’ve got just 50 bucks on my pocket and smokes is kinda my priority today. So there! Good luck to me! Maybe I’ll be happier when I eat!

ekaikai @ 2007-03-13T16:13:00

2007-03-13T08:15:02Z

Make me beautiful
Make me beautiful

A perfect soul
A perfect mind
A perfect face
A perfect lie

Make me beautiful
Make me beautiful

A perfect soul
A perfect mind
A perfect face
A perfect...

A perfect soul
A perfect mind
A perfect face
A perfect lie

ekaikai @ 2007-03-13T09:17:00

2007-03-13T01:21:03Z

If you could see me here this way
looking backwards from today
Would you do it all again?
If I could roll it back to you
just like lovers always do
I'm stoned in love, but not with you

good love
Cause when I'm feeling stoned in love
it's hard not feeling love
I feel that love is weighed in stone
When I'm feeling stoned in love

If we could wash the past away
Would we go our separate ways
or do it all again?
As if I can
Is this the way it's meant to be?
Stoned in love, but not with me

You're stoned in love
but not with me

Stoned in love
I'm stoned in love
but not with you

Stoned in love
but not with you
As if I can
If I can

ekaikai @ 2007-03-12T18:19:00

2007-03-12T10:21:03Z

Yehey! I’m so happy! Casually told my boss that I’ll be leaving by the end of the month and to my astonishment, he was ok with it. No sarcastic or rude remarks! Wonder what got into him?!? Haahahaha! Next would be putting it in writing and making it official. Char and I have been talking and I’d like to quote her on this, “Cge sabay tayo astig yun!” (with a thumbs up sign and a big grin on her face) Wow! It feels like a big weight has been lifted form my shoulders. Hmmm… I wonder which company should I be applying to? Or what position for that matter? Marketing again? Well, definitely not at another telco! We’ll see… Wonder what will be the most convincing reason to put in my resignation letter? A) I don’t want to be a slave forever B) All the machismo in this company is suffocating me or C) I’m too young to get trapped in a stiff old company. Hahahaha! Well, I’ve been planning to leave since last October. I gave it 5 more months but maybe telco just isn’t for me.

ekaikai @ 2007-03-12T14:17:00

2007-03-12T06:18:14Z

1.) Confirm your identity: Ekaikai

2.) How many years have you been on the planet?: 23

3.) What are three words you use at least daily?: Okee, ayt, dude

4.) Are you a survey addict?: well, obviously!

5.) Do you have an online journal that you use regularly?: Yup Lj.

6.) Are you one of those people that are constantly applying lotion and/or chapstick?: not much of either.

7.) Name any mental disorders you have been diagnosed with: Paranoia.

8.) Ever freeze anyone's underwear?: No!!!!!!!!

9.) Name one thing you only do/act like/wear/etc. because someone else thinks you should: Put on a happy face.

10.) Would you consider yourself random?: Nope. I’m complicatedly unique.

11.) Do you have clothes hanging in your closet that still have the tags on them?: well yeah. Don’t go out that much these days.

12.) Do you doodle all over your papers/homework?: Yes.

13.) Do you write down phone messages/notes on your hands?: Nope.

14.) What do you think of those Kidz Bop commercials?: huh?

15.) What CDs in your collection are you ashamed to admit you own?: Backstreet boys and britney spears.

16.) Got any toe socks?: nope

17.) Do you find that you rub off on your friends more, or vice versa?: I have no idea, but I think both.

18.) What time is it?: 12:59pm

19.) Does anybody really know what time it is?: probably not.

20.) Does anybody really care?: probably not

21.) Who sings that song, anyway?: oasis

22.) Do you untie your shoelaces before taking them off?: nope. Im lazy that way.

23.) Ever have random hallucinations?: haha! Yeah.

24.) Ever take your pet for a walk?: Nope, i dont have a pet

25.) Have you ever loved someone so much it made you cry?: Yeah

26.) How much do you sleep?: more than most people lately

27.) Do you think staying at home and raising the kids is primarily "women's work"?: nope. Its both parents work. Staying home is a choice.

28.) What do you think about gay marriage?: whatever makes them happy

29.) Do blondes annoy you in general?: no. I really don’t care

30.) Ever done illegal drugs?: haha! Im done with those.

31.) Do you smoke?: its my only addiction.

33.) Yell at your parents?: I whine and get irritated but not so much as yell

34.) Compete with your siblings?: don’t have those.

35.) Think you got enough love as a child?: yup

36.) Listen to pop music?: somtimes

37.) Out of your own, what's your favorite lotion/ body wash/ cream/ perfume/ cologne/ etc. scent?: I like the dove green tea and cucumber collection. I’m wearing the new scent from Ralph now but I like citus scents in general

38.) Why do fools fall in love?: because we just want to love, be loved and hope that that person will be the one..

39.) Why is the sky blue?: it has somthing to do with water particles and the way light goes through it which makes it blue colored

40.) Did you know that your metabolism slows down at night; so if you have a late snack you will probably gain weight in the morning?: yeah that’s what im trying to do now. I’m gna fatten myself up. We’ll see in a month. Hopefully I’ll gain 10 to 20 lbs by then.

41.) Are you going to have an open casket funeral?: nah. Id rather be cremated.

42.) Do you bruise easily?: yeah i do actually

43.) Does death fascinate you?: yup. I’d like to experience it soon.

44.) Ever dated someone five years older (or more) than you?: Nope. Just 3 years older

45.) Ever dated someone five years younger (or more) than you?: Nope. Just a year younger.

46.) What's with all the black rappers right now having such terrible teeth?: hmmm.. I think they call it grillzz. Hahaha!

47.) What was the whole "rosebud" thing all about?: Rose bud??

48.) How many people do you think would come to your funeral?: A few. Maybe just my family.

49.) Are you wondering why I'm still on the death thing?: not really I like the topic

50.) Who said this: "Death, taxes, and childbirth. There's never a convenient time for any of them."?: I wouldn’t know but I remember a line from meet joe black 'there are no certainties in life except death and taxes'. Gosh I lve that movie.

51.) Have you ever contributed to someone's death?: I guess. My dad’s.

52.) What Hollywood celebrity annoys you the most?: no one. I really don’t give a damn.

53.) What do you think about school?: I’m done with it.

54.) Are you addicted to the internet?: its something I do to pass the time.

55.) Do you have those little white vitamin deficiency marks on your fingernails?: eww.. no.

56.) Dog person or cat person?: Dog person

57.) What do you take when you have a headache?: ponstan

58.) What's your alcoholic drink of choice?: i dont drink much these days. But baileys and tequila rose is good

59.) Is "settling down" a major priority for you (meaning; married, good job, spending your extra money on new curtains and mowing the lawn on weekends?): I’d like that someday. but getting a good job is my priority right now.

60.) Do you have a calendar/datebook?: yes

61.) Was "Beaches" as good a movie as everyone says it was?: i guess. Not really the drama kind of person. I think I fell asleep watching that.

62.) Physically, are you usually cold or warm?: cold

63.) Socially, are you usually cold or warm?: cold probably

64.) Ever been so depressed that you don't shower, do the dishes, clean up anything, answer your phone or move from your couch for more than a couple days?: just to the point where I seclude myself from everyone and want to die.

66.) Do you ever walk by someone and they go, "how are you?" and you go, "how are you?": yeah i have. I didn’t recognize her. she turned out to be one of my grade school classmates.

67.) Wouldn't you rather we all just avoid eye contact and not say anything at all?: yeah. It leads to getting along, then maybe love then the inevitable break-up. Better to be alone than hurt anyone else.

68.) Ever do volunteer work?: I did. I miss that. Maybe I should start again.

69.) Do you think community service should really be given as a punishment for criminals?: Sure.

70.) Do you shoplift?: Nope

71.) Ever worked so hard that you cried?: got so frustrated at work I cried.

72.) What if God was one of us?: well I hope he talks to me so I’ll get through this.

73.) Who sings that song?: Joan Osborne

74.) Are you old enough to remember the commercial with little old lady saying "where's the beef?": haven’t seen that.

75.) Finish this sentence: "My kingdom for a/an ________.": muffin

76.) Do you remember the Care Bear craze?: Yes. I lke braveheart and sunshine bear.

77.) How about when Oprah was fat?: yeah. The good old days.

78.) Remember Pogs?: yup. Hmmm.. wonder where mine is.

79.) Remember when that gymnast sprained her ankle in the summer Olympics, 1996?: Um no?

80.) Remember what you were doing yesterday at this time?: getting another hair cut.

81.) Do you love shoes?: Yes an flipflops

82.) What shampoo do you use?: citre shine, Palmolive aromatherapy, finesse.

83.) How do you feel right now?: numb

84.) Do you let dogs lick your face?: No.

85.) Do you subscribe to Playgirl or Playboy?: no.

86.) What are you doing right now besides filling out this survey?: listening to my ipod

87.) What year were you born?: 1983. year of the pig. This is supposed to be my year but it started with a disastrous bang.

88.) Do you rule that year?: maybe?

89.) Do you paint your nails?: my toes

90.) What's your hair length?: a few inches past my shoulders

91.) When did you get a cut/trim last?: yesterday

92.) Do you have hoity-toity relatives, or trailer trash relatives?: neither. Just the average kind.

93.) Would you consider yourself to have an innovative mind?: nope. I really don’t want to think

94.) Has an old man/woman ever flirted with you?: eeewww… yeah when I was applying for a permit in DTI. Eeewww.

95.) Ever written a survey like this?: nope. I just like answering it.

96.) Would you ever consider dating someone who's been in prison?: nope.

97.) Are you worth crying over?: maybe not. people tend to get over me quickly.

98.) Do you know anyone who's drowned?: Nope

99.) Would you rather have a one-on-one conversation or go to a party?: One on one. I like listening and I also like talking. That how I get to know a person, that is if they open up to me.

100.) Do you feel better after purging all this random information from your system?: Not really. Im just thankful that a few minutes have passed while im pretending to work.

40 Questions

1. Where were you an hour ago?
spg. Puffing away my life.

2. Who will be your next kiss?
no one romantic. My mom or aunt I guess.

3. Is there something purple within 10 feet of you?
a sticker of something.

4. Are you wearing socks right now?
nope.

5. When was the last time you went out of the state/province?
hahaha! Secret!!!

6. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?
nope.

7. Last thing you had to drink?
water

8. What are you wearing right now?
top and slacks

9. What was your last purchase?
blueberry cheesecake.

10. What's the last thing you wrote?
some things my boss is making me do.

11. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
my mom.

12. Have you bought any clothing items in the last month?
yes. Some jeans and tops.

13. Do you have a pet?
nope

14. What's the last sporting event you watched?
boxing match of pacman

15. What is in your pocket right now?
20 bucks

16. If you could be anywhere right now, where would you be?
beach

17. What is the last thing you purchased online?
nothing.

18. One thing you hate about yourself?
everything

19. What's your favorite soup?
any cream soup or egg drop soup!

20. Do you miss anyone?
’m trying not to miss nor care.

21. Last play you saw?
don’t like plays

22. What are your plans for the day?
get through the work day, go home, then watch vanished till I fall asleep.

23. Ever go to camp?
just a little camping trip in high school.

24. What do you want right now?
a pack of dunhill frost.

25. Were you an honor roll student in school?
just an average student

26. What do you want to Know About The Future?
nothing. It seems bleak.

27. Are you wearing cologne or perfume?
perfume.

28. Where is your best friend located?
She lives in pasig and works in libis. Same as me.

29. Do you have a tan?
I thought I did! But no. I just got all red.

30. How old do you want to be when you have kids?
I don’t think I’ll ever have one.

31. Last person who made you cry?
someone im trying to forget.

32. Do you have any tattoos or piercing?
3 piercing on the ears. I’m thinking of getting a fourth on the navel.

33. Have you ever drank your soda from a straw?
I don’t like soda

34. How do you like your soda?

I don’t like soda

34. Do you like hot sauce?
absolutely!

35. Next time you'll take a shower?
tonight.

36. What is one thing you're afraid of right now?
life.

37. What is your mood?
Blahhh.

38. Are you someone’s best friend?
des’

39. What did you want for Valentine's Day?
just a wish but it doesn’t matter. It didn’t come true.

40. What are you doing right now?
listening to my ipod

001. What does the sky currently look like?
Clear, blue and sunny.

002. What is going on outside?
Not much.

003. Would you like to find out more about your ancestors?
Sure why not.

004. How many xangas do you have?
none

005. What was the meanest comment you ever got on xanga?
none

006. Do you or don't you celebrate Halloween?
I do.

007. Do you think it is pointless?
No. any reason to eat a lot of candies is good for me.

008. Who do you miss right now?
like I said im trying not to.

009. What was the last drink you drank?
water

010. Name some good survey sites:
any I usually just steal it. hehe

011. Who was the last friend you fought with and what was it about?
des. Not really fight. She showed me a picture that made me crazy all over again.

012. Do you have scented candles around your bedroom?
Yes.

013. Has anyone ever told you that you smell funny?
not really.

014. Do you plan what your future home will look like?
yeah I’ve thought about giving my mom a nice house in the future.

015. What was your haircut like when you were 11 years old?
Short. Bob cut. I looked like an apple.

016. Have you ever had peroxide blonde hair?
No.

017. Are you scared of old places?
No.

018. Would you ever be alone in a graveyard at night?
Sure.

019. What would you do if; an old woman started yelling at you in the street, then walked off, and tripped and fell on her face? Would you help her up or laugh?
I would probably laugh but I guess I’ll also help her. maybe shes crazy or something. Poor old lady. Maybe that’s me in the future.

020. What do you think of the Rocky Horror picture show?
I don’t care

021. Name a good layout site:
I don't know.

022. What kind of TV shows do you like to watch?
Any scifi, mystery, suspense, thriller stuff.

023. Do you admire Simon Cowell's honesty?
Sure! He makes me laugh and besides, it’s the truth. Haha!

024. How many cars does your family own?
zero. No one in my family knows how to drive.

025. What does your sibling do to really irritate you?
nothing. Im an only child.

026. Do you like antiques?
not really

027. Do you approve or disapprove of hunting?
I don’t care. I just like shooting stuff in general.

028. What do you think of when I say - Doggy Style?
Snoop Dogg?!?

029. What's for dinner tonight?
I don't know.

030. How often do you brush your hair?
Once a day or not at all.

031. Are you wearing make up?
powder, lipgloss and blush.

032. What do you look like without make up?
A zombie.

033. What did you play with when you were little?
Cabbage patch dolls, barbies, stuffed toys, ants, lizards, roaches, cats…

034. Are you interested in serial killers?
no but they make a great tv series. Dexter! wehehehehe

035. What was the last movie you saw and what did you think of it?
Cahelotte’s web. It was sweet.

036. What was the scariest movie you ever saw?
Saw. Freaky but nice.

037. Who was the last friend you hung out with and what did you do together?
Des. Secret!!!! Hahahaha! All I can say is that I’m glad she’s my best friend.

038. Have you ever met anyone off myspace or xanga?
No.

039. Have you ever been stalked online?
No.

040. What about in real life?
No..

041. What shop would you not be caught dead in?
none really. I don’t care..

042. Have you ever had a caramel frappachino from Starbucks?
Yes. Yup!

043. Do you know anyone who smells of really bad BO and doesn't know it?
Hmm… some people cant help it. I think its because of the food they eat. Curry!

044. Have you ever had a major operation?
No.

045. What is the headline on your myspace?
none.

046. Do you always apply moisturiser to your face before applying foundation?
I use powder

047. How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
6.

048. Do you ever use the word CUNT or do you think its disrespectful towards women?
not really. I use bitch, fuck, ass, asshole, fucker, jerk.

049. Who is the most annoying person you've ever met?
hmmm…

050. Do you like bubble baths?
Yup.

051. Do you read in the bath?
No.

052. What is your favourite reading genre?
fiction

053. When was the last time you used the bathroom?
an hour or so ago.

054. When was the last time you had a white Christmas?

nevr

055. Do you look forward to Christmas or dread it?
it will come when it comes

056. Are you hot, warm, or cold?
Im a cold heartless bitch.

057. What was the weirdest dream you've ever had?
the latest was my teeth were broken and some fell off.

058. Are puppies or kittens cuter?
puppies! I hate cats.

059. What was the last thing you got depressed about?
regret

060. Do you like oral sex?
hahahaha! Do you?

061. What was the last thing your pet did to annoy you?
I don’t have one.

062. Have you ever had earache?
no.

063. Do you stay home sick a lot?
lately.

064. Have you ever seen the show MOST HAUNTED?
no

065. What is the closest thing to you that is green?
alcohol

066. What is the closest book to you called?
no books. Just a notebook

067. Are you wearing jewelry?
Yes.

068. What time is it?
2:16pm

069. What are you going to do now?
answer more surveys

070. What are your plans for tonight?
watch tv and sleep.

ekaikai @ 2007-03-08T12:17:00

2007-03-08T04:18:15Z

1. My 'ex' still.... doesn’t care. duh...

2. I am listening to.... Saltwater

3. Maybe I should quit.... smoking? It’s the only vice I have left.

4. I love... nothing

5. My bestfriend(s).... make me happy.

6. I don't understand.... life

7. I lost my respect for.... someone.

8. I last ate.... pomelo salad.

9. The meaning of my display name is.... a petname my ex gave me.

10. Love is.... something you can only pursue but never actually have

11. Somewhere, someone is.... cursing or forgetting me.

12. I will always.... think what if

13. Love seems to be.... something that always leaves me.

14. I never ever want to lose.... my self again.

15. My mobile phone is.... right here.

16. When I woke up this morning.... I dreaded waking up and going to work again.

17. I get annoyed at.... certain people

18. Parties..... are a passing phase for me. Id rather stay home.

19. My pet.... is non existent

20. Kisses.... are sweet

21. Today I.... am sick.

22. I wish.... everything will be different

23. I really want.... change

What would you rather be called?
01. Babe or baby: I was called baby

02. Sweetie or Honey: I was also called sweetie

03. Darling or Hun: neither

PRESENTLY-
01. is your hair wet?: noooooo!

02. is your cell phone right by you? yes, it is.

03. do you miss someone? yes. And I hate it.

04. are you wearing chap stick? Yes, cherry.

05. are you tired? always.

06. are you excited? No, there’s nothing to be excited about.

07. are you watching tv?: no.

08. are you wearing pajamas? no.

HAVE YOU-
01. recently done anything you regret? Yes.

02. recently lied? Yes.

03. ever stuck gum under a desk? No.

04. ever kicked someone? Not someone. Freaky cats maybe.

05. ever tripped over your own feet? Yeah.

TODAY-
01. have you cursed? Yes. Abut a hundred times today.

02. have you yelled at someone? Not yet today.

03. have you gotten mad at someone? Yes.

ekaikai @ 2007-03-07T12:58:00

2007-03-07T04:59:52Z

I was back to the place where we went. I stayed in the place where we did. I escaped to try to forget but I ended up remembering everything. I’ve been completely sober for a month. I took a risk and challenged myself if I could control it. I did. But I didn’t like it anymore. The bitter taste was tainted with guilt and regret. Somehow, it didn’t make me feel better like I thought it would. The company was great and the food was good. But the knot in my tummy wouldn’t go away. I also had a lot of time for myself this weekend. I spent countless hours looking at the horizon, listening to music and thinking. I must admit; I still love him. I know its pathetic, a tad bit too late and hopeless but I do. Till how long will this take? How long will it take for me to try to convince myself that sometimes no matter how much you love someone, they just don’t love you. I told him I miss him. How does he do it? How does he forget so easily? How des he stop caring? How can he be so hateful and so unforgiving? I don’t think I’ll ever see him again. He wont let me.

Breathing

2007-03-02T10:34:19Z

I'm finding my way back to sanity, again
Though I don't really know what
I am gonna do when I get there
Take a breath and hold on tight
Spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back in the arms of grace

I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside Heaven's door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be

I am looking past the shadows
Of my mind into the truth and
I'm trying to identify
The voices in my head
God, which one's you?
Let me feel one more time
What it feels like to feel
And break these calluses off me
One more time

'Cause I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside your door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be

I don't want a thing from you
Bet you're tired of me waiting
For the scraps to fall
Off your table to the ground
I just want o be here now

ekaikai @ 2007-03-02T18:05:00

2007-03-02T10:06:16Z

For a few moments, I was happy again. Just for today, I felt little butterflies in my tummy. But I know that it’s just for that moment. I really hope that it’s not true that people don’t change, because I want to. Not for anyone else but for myself. I didn’t like that girl. She was callous and out of control. She was insecure and paranoid. She was the luckiest and happiest person in the world and she blew it. I don’t want to be that girl anymore. I hate her. I hate everything about her. I hate how she acted. I hate her for making him give up on her. I hate her for hurting him. I hate her so much. I hate myself and I cant forgive myself.

ekaikai @ 2007-03-02T13:27:00

2007-03-02T05:29:35Z

What a weird day! There was a raid at my neighbor’s house this morning! God! Intense. I didn’t ever bother to go out! It was all crazy outside. I didn’t know why they raided the house and I don’t care. When everything died down, I had to go straight here at the office. My boss goes nuts when I’m not around.

On a lighter note, guess who texted me? Yup yup. He did, BUT because he wanted his bag back. Well actually, Shirley and I were talking yesterday. And I mentioned to her that I still had his bag. Shirley said that he mentioned it to her and was asking her help to get it back. I said that if he wanted it, why not tell me? Its not like I’m not going to reply or anything. He texted me today. God! I miss him so much! We’re both living separate lives but damn, his messages still makes me smile. It always feels so good talking to him. I miss talking to him about anything and everything. I really hope he’s doing well. He still means a lot to me. He’s still everything I ever wanted and more. But I also know that what’s done is done. He seems happy. I’m glad. I still care for him. Now and always.

How to be happy

2007-03-01T07:01:14Z

The place to be happy is HERE
and the time to be happy is NOW.

Happiness is a journey, not a destination.
So work like you don't need money.
Love like you've never been hurt, and,
Dance like no one's watching.

confused men and women living in a confused world

2007-03-01T06:15:31Z

I’m having a difficult time giving love advice to my friend. First and foremost, I’m not an expert. Frankly, I don’t know how to unravel a guy’s inner psyche. But as a friend, I’ve got to give her my insights. So here’s the situation. The guy gives certain comments that hurts or pisses off my friend. Naturally, she told the guy how she felt. And this was his reply:

"not now pls, i hate emotions, i'm not good at it.. di ako maganda magsalita. wel talk about it nlg sumtym! ayt? tama na drama mu 4 2day…”

Nice guy huh? Well it is a basic instinct for guys, maybe for some girls too. They would rather escape rather than deal with the situation. All I could tell her was that if he didn’t want to discuss it then don’t. She might end up yakking her head of but he didn’t understand a single word. If she was a martyr she could just dismiss her feelings. But of course she’s not. I told her it’s a two-way thing. She should learn to control he emotional out bursts. But he should also learn to listen to her and bite his sarcastic tongue. Easier said than done! Good luck to them both! Looks like they’re into each other enough to get through this.

Moving on, moving on, moving on.

2007-03-01T05:57:51Z

Firefly - Bonnie bailey

Waited for this moment

Quite awhile

Passing through the velvet

Into a sea of smiles

Share your candy with your friends

Melt into this world holding hands

And fall in love again and again

Glorious life

Living the dream

Into the light

Now we are free

Firefly

Ride the breeze in the sky

Kisses give you shivers

On a bed of warm molasses

Glitter flickering rhythms

Into your fluttering lashes

In a place where you don’t keep out of time

Melodies like fluid caress you mind

And you fall in love again and again

ekaikai @ 2007-03-01T10:05:00

2007-03-01T02:51:31Z

Here I am

I’m too shy to show you my vulnerable side
I'm to near to make it clear EMOTIONAL SUICIDE
Is this love I’m thinking of? I know that
Close the latch I can't attach, I’m sure that

Here I am, I can't give you anything
Here I stand, I can't turn away
HERE I AM, DON’T WANT TO CAUSE YOU PAIN
HERE I STAND, ALONE AND ON MY OWN AGAIN

Can’t connect, I haven’t slept, AM I CRAZY?
Fall so deep and I can't sleep, I’m slipping into hazy
Want to share but its not there, and tell me why
Laugh too loud, no tears to cry
And I really want to cry

Here I am, I can't give you anything
Here I stand, I can't turn away
HERE I AM, DON’T WANT TO CAUSE YOU PAIN
HERE I STAND, ALONE AND ON MY OWN AGAIN

HERE I AM
HERE I STAND
ON MY OWN AGAIN

Angels Fall

2007-02-28T07:48:31Z

If I Can’t Have You - Zero 7

Have you ever wondered
If it smart when you've hurt and ignored
Oh, the sort that goes away
Even though I waited for you
Oh, how I adore you

You never saw my face
I traced your path each day
We could be always together

Now I watch you bleed
You had all I need
How I love you so
Now we'll never know
If I can't have you

I even did the research
Went to work, learned to flirt
Wore a skirt and faced dirt
And, ah, still you didn't notice
You never focused on me

You never saw my face
I traced your path each day
You never lifted your eyes to me, ah

Now I watch you bleed
You had all I need
How I love you so
Now we'll never know
If I can't have you

If I can't have you 3x

.H.A.P.P.Y.N.E.S.S.

2007-02-28T05:57:15Z

“Happiness is only something we can pursue, but not actually have.”

- The Pursuit of Happyness